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my DAUGHTERis my PASSIONin LIFE

aniyah07 — Tue, 01 Dec 2009 18:18:18 +0000

My passion in life is to be the best mother a child can have. Every morning when I wake up I head to my daughter’s room where I find her sleeping like an ANGEL! I quietly go into her closet to find her an outfit for the day. She is a real diva because every time I find the perfect outfit, she wakes up and says, “Hi mom, where is Lady?” Lady is the dog that she got for her birthday… but any way, hearing the love in her voice when she greets me drives me everyday. It tells me that I am a good mother and the struggles are worth every minute. I wish I could spend 16hours a day with my daughter and the other 8hours sleep because she is a hand full! I enjoy being in the presence of my daughter because her spirit is soooo BRIGHT! I would be a stay at home mom if I could! My passion of being the best mother kind of benefits my daughter. It will allow her to grow up knowing that she had a mother who was always there when she needed me. It will build the bond between my daughter I. On the other hand, I believe that being too close could be a bad thing. She already calls me by my first name, which I’m trying to stop. But she could possibly think of me as a friend instead of a mother. I would love to be a mother and a friend, but a mother FIRST! My passion to be the BEST mother I can be has influenced my college success tremendously. If it were not for my daughter, I probably would not be enrolled in college right now. I know that in order to provide for my baby to the best of my ability, I need to further my education. Plain and simple- I need a degree. My career will bring good money home for my child. Once I get enough saved up, then I might put my career on the back burner to be a stay at home mom. I do not know many others that have the same passion as I do because I mostly keep to myself. Although I can possibly network with some of the parents at my daughter’s doctors appointments! Perhaps we could have play dates! I do not think that my passion in life is hard to achieve. It will be a little rocky but I am already on the path to SUCCESS! I believe the mountains that I will have to climb will be worth it. My mother is 45 years old and she is just now following her passion. Her choices have influenced me because I do not want to wait until my children are old to be able to provide for them. I have to start while I am young.

21- Values?

aniyah07 — Mon, 30 Nov 2009 20:10:00 +0000

Being almost 21 I have learned to value a lot of things in life. Most younger people do not value as much as a person who has lived life does. Seeing as though Thanksgiving has just passed, I now have a better outlook on the things that I value and that I am thankful for. I value my mother and father. Although they were not the best parents, they did the best that they could. I value my daughter. She is a terrible two, but she has the sweetest spirit! I also value her father. Most teen fathers bail out on their responsibilities but he did not. He challenges his responsibilities! I most of all value God for giving me life and seeing me through the tough times. My age has helped shape my values in life. I have more on my shoulders and now I can relate to some of the people that I value, like my parents. My daughter has also helped shape my values. She has shown me how to appreciate the small things. It does not take much to make her happy. I do not participate in any organizations on campus but Habitat For Humanity would probably be one to she a person’s values.

I am proud of my self for going to school. I graduated from high school in 2007 and I kept putting off the idea of going to college. I enrolled at the University of Memphis and I am getting ready for my second semester! I plan on bringing up my grade point average. I plan to achieve this by the end of my freshman year by STUDYING! I did not do much of that so far, and it shows! I also plan to not have any more children. I love the one and the half of child that I have (8 months pregnant), but I do not wish to bring any more children into the world until my career is off the ground. I am going to try practicing abstinence seeing as how I am not married and should not be having sex any way! BUT if that does not work I am going to get Mirana!

my FACE is thru BOOKing

aniyah07 — Mon, 30 Nov 2009 19:51:59 +0000

I have a Facebook and I had a Myspace page. I deleted my Myspace page a few years ago because it caused a lot of controversy in my relationship. I would rather delete my page then to delete my boyfriend out of my life. After I deleted my page I went and opened me up a Facebook. Most of my good friends live in Delaware and Facebook was a good way for me to communicate with them. I have gotten busy lately being a mother, student, and managing my job that I seldom log onto my Facebook account.

Although I do not share too much personal information on my page, others do. I guess they feel that the information is safe between the four corners of their computer screen. It really is not though. The Internet is a world within itself. Its called cyber space! Some people also feel that if they set their page to private, no one will see their personal information except the friends that they added. On line blogging lets readers know the views or opinions of the blogger on a particular subject or concern. I am not really into the whole blogging thing, but if someone can learn something from my blog entries then why not!

There are some pros and cons to having Internet communities. The positive outlook for e was to communicate with my long distance friends. Almost everyone who I went to school with back in Delaware- all the way from elementary- had a Facebook. It felt good to find an old friend and send them a friend request, just to see if they remembered me. As much as I have changed over the years, my old friends still remembered me! The con about having an online community would be the drama. Like I said earlier, it can really break up a home, especially if one is not being honest about what they are doing online. One negative experience I had was because of a first impression. Back in high school I did not leave a good first impression on some people so the negative posts began to come. It got so bad that I had to block a few users.

Online communities can enrich a person’s life because he/ she can network. It seemed like a lot of upcoming rappers and singers wanted me to view the music on their page in hopes of getting discovered. I am not a recording artist but word travels. The drawbacks would be how they are not monitored well enough. I have a twelve-year-old cousin who has a MySpace page claiming to be 21. If the site was better monitored, she would not have a page, you have to be 18.

To avoid the drama of the online community, I just text my important friends. Most of my friends have pages that they do not even check any more because the drama has gotten out of control. We all have cell phones and text until our fingers are numb.

u Can’t CoNtRoL ME

aniyah07 — Sat, 03 Oct 2009 19:21:39 +0000

When I think of the word CONTROL I immediately get defensive. I think of people trying to CONTROL me. The thought of anyone trying to run my life gets me upset. Back in the day, before college, I did not think much about control. I guess because I was a minor so my parents had control over me. Once I realized I need to control my own actions, I got mad when people tried to control me. Being in college has helped me gain a better insight about what control really means. No one can control me, because I have enough control over myself not to let that happen. If a person can control another human, that person never had control to begin with. To me control is knowing how to conduct myself in almost every situation. Control is also being on top of the situation. Making sure I can manage the outcome of a particular event in my life. In every situation we encounter, we are responsible for controlling it. At work last Friday I had to control my anger. By controlling my anger, I then possessed control over the outcome. I had a rude old white man come in to the Dollar Tree where I work. I spoke and I didn’t get ay response. I thought maybe he didn’t hear me. When it was time for him to check out I spoke again while ringing up his stuff. He didn’t even look my way. He threw the money on the counter and left. I could have went off and been ignorant right along with him, but I chose not to. I controlled my temper and said, “Thank you!” If I would have been rude to him I could have potentially lost my job. I had to think about the bigger picture. A typical response would have been, “I don’t want to ring you up with your racist ass.” College has made me think before I react. By doing so, I control the outcome of any situation. I can continue to grow by learning more ways to CONTROL myself.

Hello world!

aniyah07 — Tue, 22 Sep 2009 20:55:42 +0000